- I love my family like crazy, although we're a bit nutty I think we are more functional than most familes I've met. I like to blog and often am trying to figure out what site is best, so far I've settled on blogger. I love cats and very very well behaved dogs (but there really aren't that many around are there?) Diagnosed with an eating disorder, but I am trying not to let it define me.
Friday, November 11, 2011
I cannot stand the sight of me. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, the reflection makes me so mad at myself. How did I let myself get so fat? How do I get some sort of control back so that I can look at myself? Well first off, I need to stop shoving food into my fat face. I need to work out a shit ton more than I do now. I need to remember that I don't deserve to eat, that it's not the answer to anything. What I will do, is lose this weight, plus some. I won't give in to hunger, or laziness, or this stupid fucking idea that I deserve recovery. What a joke. Ha. I don't deserve anything.