FUCK

I hate that feeling when I'm angry and frustrated and want to cry but won't let myself so the muscles in my jaw tense up. I hate that instead of being angry at people, who actually deserve it, I will take this anger and bundle it up and take it out on myself.  I won't say to the person, "You fucked up and you need to fix this" No I won't say that because I'm weak and worthless and even if people do screw up, its only me that's getting hurt so its not a big deal. I can wrap it up and take it out on myself.